A big, big hug from Holland then! And also one to poor Viggo! How terrible that all trouble comes to you at the same time now! I wish you very good luck, and "hou je taai!"
That's the backside of having pets, when you start to care about them it is hard to loose them, and they have a much shorter life than humans, think about the good memories you had and how your life changed after getting Axel. How would the life have been without.
Big hug from me too.
Sorry you are having a rough time of it at the moment.
Try & stay positive,things will get better,you just have to tell yourself this.
And remember that you have friends here.